BEHIND CLOSED DOORS

                    My husband and I got married on May 12th of 2018; we were more than ready and thrilled to expand our family. However, it didn't happen as quickly as we had hoped therefore we took it into prayer asking our heavenly   father to bless us with the fruit of the womb before the year ended. Our expectation was to conceive before the year ended. That was more so , my husband's request; my attitude was more so lord whenever you see fit let it be done. My husband however said no, before the year ends we will get pregnant.         After countless pregnancy tests; they all came back negative. In addition to already feeling discouraged; it didn’t make the process any easier when church members (especially) , and peers would inquire when we planned on expanding our family and how they felt it was a bad idea to wait too long to have children.  Now the seed had been planted ; here I am constantl...

Sleep is a thing of the past ; there are days where I’m up 24 hours straight because Eira would much rather play than sleep at night . Sometimes she’s up til  6am  and I have to be at work for  7. Surprisingly I’ve grown accustomed to functioning on zero sleep 🤷🏽‍♀️   I was unaware of the ins and outs of FMLA (Family and Medical Leave Act ), short term disability, maternity leave etc . I I ran out of PTO prior to my maternity leave due to the countless hospital visits therefore during my leave I had to pay for my insurance out of pocket. Thankfully I had enrolled in short term disability therefore I received a lump sum of money 2 weeks after delivery. However , that money wasn’t enough to cover my monthly bills , health insurance etc so I had to dip into our savings. I spent approximately 10k while out on maternity leave for 3 months . (It covered Eira and l’s health insurance , deductible for labor ,  weekly appts to the Eira’s doctor , formula etc etc ) ....