BEHIND CLOSED DOORS

Here I lay in my bedroom reflecting on my emotional doom. I try my best to make sense of this cuz I don't want to assume. In order for me to find peace it's best I let my feelings cease. U claim you want to be with me but please explain your new found treasury. You claim you want to marry me then please explain why I'm the one on my knees ? U don't care , you never did and never will . U make excuses to justify your selfishness and thrill. Now here I am questioning my worth when all along its been your strategy to keep me at fault. All I really want is to move on ... I may have alcohol in my system but these feelings are post mortem . When it comes to my pain just know that , you are the stem

As you reflect on life , one might hand you a tissue. They fail to realize that your poor interactions with men stem from your daddy issues. Daddy was never there but when he was there , he was more concerned with other affairs. These affairs landed daddy in jail. Daddy issues , it's safe to say that her pain has manifested into sexuality. She may be easy to smash but just know that , you're smashing her soul and that has got to be the ultimate low. That's a form of genocide , killing off the youth worldwide . I'm a product of this epidemic , as I've accepted my authentic . There's also a large number that has yet to understand and grasp this epic. In the midst of this dysfunction , there was one person that made it their mission to ensure there was no more of a malfunction. Her name is mommy , mommy did it all. She picked up the broken pieces and made it whole. Mommy never complained nor did she shed a tear after all those years . Mommy sacrificed her yout...

Love, love, love What is it exactly ? I have yet to find the true definition. The love I knew definitely needed revision. From what I had experienced, it felt like an anvil was tied around my ankle, thrown in the ocean and i was left to drown . While I was down . I reflected on the things that I had done . I realized when it came to mistakes , i made a ton. I lost myself , I couldn't recognize myself , I was by myself. I searched in depth for so long Looking in the mirror I saw a foe. Ready to go toe to toe. I had become my own worst enemy. I readily conquer my fears as I choose to no longer shed tears. I am a victim of love , love was suppose to uplift me instead it resulted in my life's shift

I was in it for the mental Warfare , not saying that it was fair . I was in a place where I just didn't care . My behaviors were so mundane , people believed I was going insane. Now here I am standing before you with nothing less than a repaired heart and soul . I no longer feel cold. I walk around with my head held up in my secure soles . Feeling & looking nothing but bold . My soul was almost sold . Glad to say I didn't fold . i must say I realized my worth . Its safe to compare it to a pot of gold