Reflection

Here I lay in my bedroom reflecting on my emotional doom. I try my best to make sense of this cuz I don't want to assume. In order for me to find peace it's best I let my feelings cease. U claim you want to be with me but please explain your new found treasury. You claim you want to marry me then please explain why I'm the one on my knees ? U don't care , you never did and never will . U make excuses to justify your selfishness and thrill. Now here I am questioning my worth when all along its been your strategy to keep me at fault. All I really want is to move on ... I may have alcohol in my system but these feelings are post mortem . When it comes to my pain just know that , you are the stem

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