BEHIND CLOSED DOORS

Another old piece 

Wrote this piece approximately 5 years ago 

you would think after facing the number of adversities that I have , I would finally buckle down and accept The Lord as my savior . I have been able to surpass a whole lot and there's no possible way I could have done it without him . I am very much aware of his existence and I do try to live righteously but i have failed to give it a conscious effort.  Some time in 2009, I visited my doctor for my annual check up . The doctor found cancerous cells on my cervix . I went back and forth for testing approximately 6 times. When it was time for me to start treatment, The cancer miraculously disappeared . I fell out my chair in the doctors office in tears . I was involved in a 6 car collision last year (December 31st at 7am) I had to be removed out of my car with the jaws of life . You would think I would get it together by now right ? But nope ... Here I am still engaging in the activities of the world . A world that has done absolutely nothing for me . A world that has fought me tooth...

Your unexpected passing left us incoherent . The loss caused a lot of chaos . Never thought i would be obsessed with my immortality , but unfortunately this has now become my reality.  As I fear my untimely death , I'm trying to find peace which has been a journey I find very hard to accept . Some value their ability to breathe as others focus on the grief . The unknown is equivalent to an obstacle course.   A path that is hostile but far from impossible.  Your physical absence doesn't take away from your spiritual guidance . I feel your presence & can't deny this feeling.   A feeling that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I'd do just about anything for one more chance to say I love you But that's nothing new .  RIP - happy birthday Willis ... Forever in our hearts .. Miss you ❤️❤️❤️

Where do old flames belong? Is it possible one might be your spouse? Or should they all just be evicted from your thoughts?  Old flame , it's safe to assume that we all have that one flame that we just can't seem to tame.  A bond so strong , you lose all sense of reality . A feeling you wish could surpass all mortality .  Here You are constantly wondering what could have been ? When in hindsight staying in that relationship is equivalent to the deadliest sin. You were emotionally imprisoned , enjoying conjugal visits and you didn't even know it .  A distorted perception that you refuse to acquit.. You're not stuck on love , you're stuck on stupid ... Living a life totally diluted & clueless ...  Finally Putting out the flame is where the trouble lies , your thought process is quite biased. I believe it's my duty to offer you some advise , your worth and happiness is your ultimate prize for putting an end to your gradual demise.  That  old flame is ...

The male species spends his whole life trying to be the man instead of becoming the man. This logic stems back from slavery days where they were bind and held in shackles . To limit our excellence . Our crowns have already been paid for by our ancestors. Our freedom is far more reachable than we think  That Man could easily be your bloodline 

I witness a demographic suffering in silence. They are literally crying out for guidance. searching in all the wrong places to find fulfillment. I pray that this piece makes a difference.    This epidemic is slowly killing off our youth worldwide.  They yell  out "fuck love" and chase lust. They are cutting out checks for bigger busts. They cut out all rational to better adjust to a lifestyle they can't keep up . They have neglected their mind , body and soul to seek temporary pleasure with what's in between their legs . What happened to women turning heads? Without jumping in their beds. Your features don't define you neither does it refine you.  A real gentleman wants a strong knowledgeable woman whom values her life long mission and that is to be ONE IN A MILLION ...