Reflection

you would think after facing the number of adversities that I have , I would finally buckle down and accept The Lord as my savior . I have been able to surpass a whole lot and there's no possible way I could have done it without him . I am very much aware of his existence and I do try to live righteously but i have failed to give it a conscious effort. 

Some time in 2009, I visited my doctor for my annual check up . The doctor found cancerous cells on my cervix . I went back and forth for testing approximately 6 times. When it was time for me to start treatment, The cancer miraculously disappeared . I fell out my chair in the doctors office in tears . I was involved in a 6 car collision last year (December 31st at 7am) I had to be removed out of my car with the jaws of life . You would think I would get it together by now right ? But nope ... Here I am still engaging in the activities of the world . A world that has done absolutely nothing for me . A world that has fought me tooth & nail on every move that I have ever made . A world that has terrorized , chastised and tried to beat me effortlessly .  Here I am trying to save the souls of my fellows women but yet my soul isn't saved ... How ironic is that ??? 

Today is day 1 : I'm wiping the slate clean .... DO OVER !!! 

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