Insecurities

Disclaimer : In this piece I'm referring to myself . I'm speaking from my own personal experience as well as what pertains to me. I can't speak for any one else but me.. ENJOY !!!  

Insecurities : I bet you've heard a lot of females say either to or about their boyfriends . "He made me this way , he made me insecure " 
Umm come again ? Wanna run that by me one more time ? That's absolutely false . That's the thickest bullshit I've heard a lot of females try to convince themselves as well as others that their insecurities stem from the actions of their partner ..Well I wholeheartedly disagree...  Yes ma'am I certainly do ...
 
Insecurities are pre-existing conditions , they are well planted seeds . Your partner may have watered that plant but he didn't plant the seed . 
There are underlying reasons as to why we behave the way we do , why we react the way we do , why we communicate the way do etc 
Prime Example : I use to be very insecure , I mean every and any female around my man made me feel inferior. My then boyfriend wasn't necessarily doing anything wrong . He was just being friendly since that's his personality but I couldn't stand it . 
The Source of my insecurity : my father walked out and never looked back . I guess the duties of a father proved to be too overwhelming for him. So I never never had the chance to learn how to appropriately communicate & interact with the opposite sex. Whenever I was in a relationship I had this cloud over my head and I would instantly think they would leave me too . 
I walked out on a lot of men .. Wanna know why ? My motto: "I'll leave before you ever think of leaving me " i allowed my fear to take over my love life 
I would walk out without any indication of him attempting to leave . It was all in my head .... Now it took a lot of soul searching , prayer and therapy to finally escape that mind frame .
Now if my man wants to leave me , he's more than welcome to do so . Quite frankly no female can ever take my place. I bring to the table what no other female can offer. I'll be the one he'll never forget.  We are all different within our own rights , we all bring something different to the table . I have certainly embraced my authenticity & you should too . Celebrate  your authenticity . don't emulate the authenticity of another  .. She can never be YOU and you can never be HER 


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