Silent killer


You are just like poison , slowly moving through my system kiling all of my defenses with time .  
You ain't right, you take me high
Then that high, subsides
my body gradually flat lines
How many doses do I need now?
What's the prognosis, will you forever be around Or am I just another victim of an assassin that broke my mind down? 
If I told you I was mentally ill , would you believe me? 
If I showed you that I'm intelligently skilled, could you see it ? 
I feel like the whole world is targeting me and they don't even know it 
My silent killer 
Will longer gonna stand as a pillar
My mind weakened from that ice cold distiller 
I'm the only one that holds the key to this prison I call my  ...... MIND 
My silent killer lives between my very two ears 

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