From Revelation to a Book-worthy Journey

 Single, married, divorced, and single again that became the unexpected chapter sequence of my life.

In my twenties, I squandered my single season. No guidance, no intentional preparation, no wisdom or discernment. I rushed into marriage, believing love and good intentions would be enough to sustain a covenant that actually requires maturity and understanding. When that marriage ended in divorce, I wasn’t just heartbroken 

I was humiliated.

I still remember attending a funeral back home in Worcester. I came back home, opened Facebook, and saw a message from a young woman I knew of but had never spoken to. She wrote, “My friend in Virginia said she heard your marriage ended, so I wanted to confirm.” I froze. News of my pain had traveled across states. I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me. The embarrassment felt louder than my grief.

That moment marked the beginning of my unraveling  but also, unknowingly, the beginning of my rebuilding.

It took me two full years to realize that what I saw as punishment was actually my season of restoration. I didn’t just get a second chance at life 

 I got a do-over with clarity.

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