Manifestation

Women are natural nurturers so naturally we nurture our pain . Unfortunately, our pain manifests into sexuality. We yearn for that one person to COMPLETE us and make us whole . 

Jumping from bed to bed in hope of gaining acceptance and unconditional love . 

Little do you know , the love you are searching for in fact does come with conditions . 

When you focus on yourself , you get focused on . 

You should focus on him enhancing you spiritually , mentally and emotionally as opposed to him just stroking you intimately. 

MAKE yourself WHOLE before you appear as a HOE to the rest of the world. My pain didn't manifest into sexuality . However , it manifested into anger and bitterness . I became a man eater .. I was a savage, I would demolish any man that crossed my path. First I would gain their trust then gradually convince them that they were the epitome of my world (thickest bullshit ever ) . As long as there was no physical contact , I had the upper hand aka leverage. It was all about being in control . I thrived off of the psychological warfare. I'm very convincing and I have a way with words therefore it was no challenge to manipulate my way into their hearts, minds and lastly their pockets . I wanted them to feel how I felt ...  & that is EMPTY !!!!!

I was an empty vessel and I was projecting my pain on to others. Biggest regret ever . 

Facing the underlying source to your pain is the hardest thing you'll ever have to do But it's the only way you will find peace and live freely. 

Embrace the struggle as it becomes easier with each passing day.  You'll love the end result  ❤️❤️❤️