The Other Woman

Hmmmm now this should be interesting. I don't know the number of women that will openly admit that they have once been the "other woman"

Now let's not get ahead of our selves , let me explain myself  .

For those that are familiar with the popular reality show love and hip hop NY. Well my situation was very similar to that of Tara , petter gunz and Amina . Where I went from being the "main chick" to the "side chick "

I know what most of you thinking , "Are you freaking kidding me ?" When I look back , I ask myself the same question. I can't believe I accepted and lived such a dilemma. It's so surreal, you know it’s wrong, you know your world will be shattered, but you do it anyway. You convince yourself that since you are not the one cheating, it’s okay. You convince yourself that all the “I care about you’s/I love you too's” and all the open-ended promises actually mean something. It’s a fairytale; a world that you’ve created and are so wrapped up in that it’s hard to tell what’s real and what’s not. Even though I knew everything was wrong and that one day I would lose everything, I went ahead and decided to be the other woman. I wasn’t blind but more so naïve. I should have given up. But I was weak; and he had my emotions and my heart wrapped around his finger. Everything about my world mingled with his and I was never strong enough to walk away. I tried to walk away a few times but it was pointless . I never followed through , I loved him . So  Instead, I let myself be treated as if I was was not "good enough ". I don't blame him for the series of events that occurred , i take full responsibility . I made a conscious decision to stick around . He didn't put a gun to my head , he didn't hold me hostage , he didn't threaten me in any way, shape or form. I knowingly and actively participated in this "love triangle " 

I'm no saint neither am I the spawn of satan , I'm a small town girl in a big world that wanted to be loved and accepted but I didn't stand a chance. The love I was searching for was in the mirror all along . well that was then and this is now. I have learnt from the error of my ways . Trust me , I have . I have also learned to value myself and not let others take me for granted. "Live and let live " I have no regrets , it's made me more empathetic , I have gained the ability to see the perspective of others. I'm not bitter , I'm not angry, I don't hate him. It's life and we are human and as humans we are very flawed and imperfect . We are resilient people so we take in stride all the adversities we face ❤️❤️❤️