Concluding
The second man was more than
a fling , i loved them both, i couldn't let go of either. Number 1 had a hold on me , ask me what it is i loved ? i couldn't even tell you . i guess i was in love with the possibility of change. i was in love with his potential. I was finally experiencing love , something i had fantasized about for so long but i was getting it from the wrong person. I was now a cheater, Mister was not so forgiving. he broke things off. Of course i pleaded and begged for forgiveness but he couldn't look past it. It was a tough pill to swallow but it had to be done. My friends ask all the time " Do you miss your ex?' my response: I miss him but i miss my smile and happiness much more. I miss being secure. Its been a year or 2 since the break up and i am so much happier than i was during the 3 year span of our relationship. I found myself, i found love within myself. i realized that if they don't appreciate what you bring to the table then let them eat alone. I do believe that, there are good men out there. i have witnessed good men, i am related to good men, i work with good men, my friends are in relationships with good men. I recognize a good man when i see one. i don't believe all men are the same. There were several instances, where i questioned my worth. I realized that if they make you question yourself then they are not the one for you. I will no longer settle for anything less than I truly deserve.I am a good woman and i deserve nothing but the best. I know i will find my mister right some day but until then i intend on focusing on myself. my first priority is myself. I intend to continue on the journey of finding myself. the person i am today is attributed to all my trials and tribulations. I overcame them all with the Grace of God. I am all about women empowerment. i want to encourage women to focus on making themselves happy before they can compliment their partner. The grass is not always greener on the other side, its green when you water it. Don't go to bed with tears just to say you're going to bed with someone. You're cheating yourself out of true happiness. your standards give you the option to not just be an option. when seeds are nurtured, they have no choice but to grow. If you remind someone that they can lose you if they truly love you, they will do everything they can to keep you.
a fling , i loved them both, i couldn't let go of either. Number 1 had a hold on me , ask me what it is i loved ? i couldn't even tell you . i guess i was in love with the possibility of change. i was in love with his potential. I was finally experiencing love , something i had fantasized about for so long but i was getting it from the wrong person. I was now a cheater, Mister was not so forgiving. he broke things off. Of course i pleaded and begged for forgiveness but he couldn't look past it. It was a tough pill to swallow but it had to be done. My friends ask all the time " Do you miss your ex?' my response: I miss him but i miss my smile and happiness much more. I miss being secure. Its been a year or 2 since the break up and i am so much happier than i was during the 3 year span of our relationship. I found myself, i found love within myself. i realized that if they don't appreciate what you bring to the table then let them eat alone. I do believe that, there are good men out there. i have witnessed good men, i am related to good men, i work with good men, my friends are in relationships with good men. I recognize a good man when i see one. i don't believe all men are the same. There were several instances, where i questioned my worth. I realized that if they make you question yourself then they are not the one for you. I will no longer settle for anything less than I truly deserve.I am a good woman and i deserve nothing but the best. I know i will find my mister right some day but until then i intend on focusing on myself. my first priority is myself. I intend to continue on the journey of finding myself. the person i am today is attributed to all my trials and tribulations. I overcame them all with the Grace of God. I am all about women empowerment. i want to encourage women to focus on making themselves happy before they can compliment their partner. The grass is not always greener on the other side, its green when you water it. Don't go to bed with tears just to say you're going to bed with someone. You're cheating yourself out of true happiness. your standards give you the option to not just be an option. when seeds are nurtured, they have no choice but to grow. If you remind someone that they can lose you if they truly love you, they will do everything they can to keep you.
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